"She's here again"
I can hear them say
My ears are ringing; I have blood on my hands,
I can see them through glazed sore tearful eyes,
The same nurse's that were here before,
"She's here, its her again, don't know why she didn't leave him",
Oh god, why, if only they knew,
I am hurt, I am scared, he loves me, he says so,
"She was in here the other week, black and blue she was",
But he brings me flowers, says he's sorry, 
say its different this time he has changed,
Will not happen again, he promises,
I made him angry - it's all my fault, again,
Don't they understand it's my fault, he said so,
"Oh no, I thought you were going to leave him",
But he cried, he told me he loved me, told me he was sorry,
That he wouldn't do it again,
Said he could not live without me,
"Lies, lies and more lies, he doesn't love you,
 he wouldn't treat  you like this .
He wouldn't hurt you, he is a bully",
But he won't do it again, if I don't make him angry,
If I do as I am told, I do try, try so hard,
"He does not own you, You have your opinions, he should respect that",
But I am wrong,
"No, you are a person, a special person, 
and you have the right to do what you want to do",
If I agree with him or disagree it doesn't really matter,
Will I ever win,
"Come on love we will fix you up, we will contact people,
 people who can help",
Crying and shaking uncontrollably I let myself be wheeled into surgery,
Once again, crying, I really really have had enough,
 my body is hurting so bad,
I am all wrapped up in a world of fear, A fear I cannot help,
I am scared, somebody please, please somebody help,
When I go home he is all right for a while, then he can turn so vile,
He always is sorry for the hurt and the pain,
 swears blind he will never do it again,
All those degrading words, nasty words he shouts at me again and again, 
If I walk away, he will find me, kill me, he told me so
I am so bad, such a terrible person, I must deserve to die,
I am his darling one-minute: I am dirt the next,
"If he loved you he would not be treating you like this",
He tells me to shut up, so I shut up,
But then hurts me for not talking - can I win?
What turns him I will never really know?
It's me he said, its me, what have I done, will I ever know,
I lied, covering it up for so many years,
I ran out of excuses, but never out of tears,
Then the last time it happened to me, there was somebody there,
A nurse, a nurse especially for me,
I spoke to that nurse, told her everything,
But he found out and this is what happened to me,
"What happens when we cannot help you?
Cannot help because its to late - you will die
You have to get out, get out before it's to late",
But he loves me, he says so,
"NO this is not love, 
there are people who can help and protect 
you, please let me call the police".
But he will kill me,
"NO"
"He will not be allowed to".


My nurse was my angel, my guardian angel,
a friend who listened and helped set me free. I DID SURVIVE. 

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